Hi Friends...My new blog that Moment I realized What is love. It is basically giving you one of the most important aspect of love.

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This story is all about me Kritika, My BF Soham, and our mutual friend Aakash . This is not a love triangle, just a story of what happened between us.

You know We met someone and fall in love with that guy but is it, true love?? Is it what we expect from our lover and if it is not then what is love. We all were in college, I and Soham were in a relationship from school and went to college with the same passion but one day I ended up kissing another guy. It happened I was a bit surprised by what happened, that kiss felt... right. So, what happened? After being with my boyfriend for over ten years, I had started to feel that I did not love him.

I got more convinced about this when I became friends with Aakash. Aakash is a mutual friend of me and Soham. We would spend time together, all day in college and after classes as well. Because his PG was near my flat, he would come over often. In a couple of months, we grew really close to each other, so much so that I often told him things that I had never told my boyfriend. It was not just infatuation or attraction, it was something more, my feelings for him grew stronger with time, and no matter how much I tried to ignore them, I just could not.

My boyfriend started feeling a little insecure about Aakash and would often tell me to stay away from him. He even had words with Aakash but nothing could stop us and one day that kissed happened. And I even tried doing so, but it did not help. I do not want to hurt them he was with me throughout my life but now he has changed, he is taking my all decision, even without my concern if I am happy or not. I just started living in my flat because we can spend some time together but all time he wants sex as I m just a sex doll for him and going to satisfy him every time. Where is the love, a passionate time that we spend together?

Everything has gone and on the other hand, Aakash makes me feel better, she listened to me, guides me. Everybody around me sensed that there was something going on between Aakash and me. Even I kind of knew it was developing into something more than friendship but I was just not ready to accept it. How could I accept that I had feelings for my friend when I claimed to be in love with someone else already? And even worse, how could I tell my boyfriend this? How could I tell anyone about this? How do I explain these contradictory feelings? I would stay up all night thinking about this, and with each passing day, it kept getting all the more difficult for me. I could not understand why this was happening to me. Then one night I just poured my heart out to Aakash, and while I was talking he kissed me. I kissed him back, and it did not feel wrong. I knew I had to tell them about it. It had gone too far and I needed to confess to him what I felt for Aakash. So, I gathered all the courage I could, looked him in the eyes, and told him everything, two days after that kiss happened.

I kind of had an inkling that he saw this coming but nothing could prepare me for that disgusting expression he had on his face. we both, me and Aakash were there to help him and going to explain to him what is went wrong with him but he is not ready for that he just started hitting me and even Aakash too, Aakash did not move but he ensures nothing hurt me but suddenly Soham really started hitting hard to both of us but Aakash was between me and Soham. And suddenly Soham pushed us and I got hurt then Aakash hit him back and that moment I realized what is love.

He left the place and It has been a year since the day I told Sohan the truth, and I have finally understood what happened with him. He was sorry for that moment and want to make love with me but I denied I completely denied and once again I saw his real face when he said to me we are fuck buddies. All that time I was concluded that When I met Soham, I was in love with the idea of love, and just started liking him.

He also liked me and we started seeing each other and eventually got into a relationship. Maybe he is angry with me but I loved him so much but now I moved and he should be.

It was never a true love with him. When we did the first time we both were very young and immature and like every other case sex becomes more important than anything else. I started living in a flat alone because for Soham, I do not want to say he is one and only responsible, me too. But when I met Aakash, I felt what falling in love really meant, and I could not ignore it.

I still feel guilty for hurting Soham but he deserved it. When you are in love you just want happiness for another loved one, nothing matters. Aakash wants my happiness nothing expectation even today after one year he is the same and even I improvized as a person to be with him. l knew it was the best decision for all of us. It was a difficult thing to do but we both would not have been happy together. After one year I m hoping he will get all success and my best wishes for him because he was my first love and now we all moved on with our life. I just want to say find love do not think liking someone is love and do not share bed easily. For those who are in love, everything can wait.

This is story of mine Kritika, Aakash and Soham.

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